In the name of porn

I have an audition today. I’m not ready and I don’t want to go to it. Mainstream stuff is out of my comfort zone. Plus it doesn’t feel as mainstream when I’m told to wear hot lingerie and a skimpy dress. What we call softcore is what they call R-rated.

….but I’ll go. If I actually get this thing I won’t regret it. If I don’t I’ll have that much more experience and maybe next time it won’t be so awkward. When I see the aspiring Hollywood people who show up and sit in the holding area with their booksand iPods and they all know each other and they’re still waiting for their big break ten years later I think about my budding little porn career waiting for me at home and I’m happy. It’s working for me. People ask why I even bother with the mainstream bit parts and I finally realized I like them because they’re good for my porn standing.